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JB

We Used to Be Friends

Along TIme Ago We Used To Be Friends...

I remember this song was one of my favorites before I even begun my Veronica Mars phase of life. This song hasn't really done much for me in life except remind me of Veronica Mars/LARSEN FAMILY/Tara/The OC/Kansas City Trip/The Leaving.

The song itself is poppy and sounds like something that would be on The OC, in fact it actually was. But thats not the point, the song nowadays means so much to me. Lately the close ones have moved on and left me out in the open to find shelter on my own and bouncing back from that is a hard, long and tedious process.

It sucks to think about things relating to this because you are either happy or they strike a nerve and you become saddened. I mean there is only so much a person can do to try and fix things and leaving it at that is what I've had to do. Thinking about the loss though is something even more saddening, cuz in the end what was 3 years as apose to 3 weeks? 3 weeks of happiness and excitement? Whose to say one should out weigh the other, nobody can answer that but me and thats the sad part.

How do you fix them? How do things go on from here with whats happened?

I had someone try to help and it ultimately failed and the other person was decent; but not themselves. I knew that, and I know they knew I could tell. So I was faced with embracing the awkwardness.

Along time ago we used to be friends, what happened to us?

Jon

Spot Experience

I was sitting at my spot and was watching the waves crash down, when all of a sudden my iPhone began playing the song "Across the Universe" from the Across the Universe Soundtrack and as I looking out on the waves crashing down the song began to end and fade out with that huge ending with the Oregon blasting it's final note and I got this feeling of safety, and security. Something that I haven't felt in a long time. It was nice too feel that again, I also had this huge ephiphani today while watching August Rush. August runs off and the people who are looking for him are like well if his father (being god) takes care of him he'll be alright because it is all apart of his plan. I don't know why but I had this huge emotional response to that part in the movie and I was overwhelmed with emotions and then scattered off to my spot and here I am back from a nice 45 minute break of thinking and reflecting and I can honestly say, I feel safe again...


JB

ALL THE SMALL THINGS

On BCC there is a show being aired entitled "All the Small Things" the show is about a church Choir and the competition of their talents.

The show made an interesting choice on how to make the song "What's My Age Again" fit for a church choir and I liked their interpretation. It is very funny if you know blink-182 like I do.

Getting Back to Business

So I had this moment the other day of me being all sad and sorrowful and everything. I was on the phone with my sister and Shay said "Jon, your pathetic." And like a flash of lightening a had an A-Ha moment. (Cue the lightbulb) I had that image in my mind of that episode of Friends "The One With All The Wedding Dresses" and Rachel answers the door in the wedding dress and its her Boyfriend Josh-Uah and she opens it and says I do and Josh-Ua sees her in the dress and freaks and says "I gotta go." It isn't all in the same setting and I still do not know why that image came playing in my mind but it did and I laughed cuz my reaction was the same as Rachel's. She realizes yup, that was my bad, my bad timing, well that sucks, and she says "Yeah, well, that oughta do it." And I had that exact moment on my bed, I eventually went on to have one of the best nights I've had in a long time. Friends are good for the soul.

Life gave me lemons that I made lemonade with, now the lemonade went bad. Life still goes on...

JB