This is one of my favorite illustrations. It was painted by Payton Sawyer on the television series One Tree Hill. Her character has experienced the loss of her mother by a car accident. Her mother ran a red light and oncoming traffic crashed into her SUV. Payton is so distraught in her teenage years and full of angst that she draws this picture. Symbolizing the loss of her mother, as well as the loss of her relationship with her best friend and boyfriend.
I have never been one to appreciate paintings and other forms of tangible art. But when I saw this painting on the TV the other day, I began to be drawn into the meaning behind it and appreciate it.
To me this painting symbolizes the fallen relationships, and results in someone leaving. Now being the person who feels abandoned it is perfectly clear why the main color is black. Black represents the darkness you feel your at in your life, and how empty your heart must be. Being abandoned is a feeling that you can or will ever forget. Just imagine the closest person you know ...(IMAGINE THEM)... Now imagine that person gone, no reason, no anything.... Now imagine feeling alone, and lost, and scared, and pleading for mercy for them to come back.... But you can't get through to them....still...nothing...
Too me at least, this illustration is representing abandonment, and the person who drew it wants the audience to empathize with them. Feel a sense of abandonment themselves. Now I can personally relate to the drawing. I've felt abandoned before and I did not enjoy the feeling, not gonna lie. I felt empty, I felt weak and felt so sad that I couldn't eat. Now as overdramatic as that is, it was what I was going through. But it took time, and healing on the inside to over come my journey through the darkness, and find the light.
I saw this drawing and got that feeling on the pit of my stomach that felt like someone was squeezing my insides tight. I was determined to find it and share it with you all.
I love my FRIENDS, I love my FAMILY, I love and praise GOD for giving me life, and in the times of darkness, my FRIENDS, my FAMILY, and GOD, they all still LOVE me.
Some of this most likely did not make sense, but to me it did.
Love You All,
JB
